Briefly I think the hormone changes involved in becoming pregnant again had a challenging effect on me. It was hard to see all the good things in my life even though I knew they were there and I knew things weren't too bad I just felt a bit bland.
Things are looking up now though. Last week we discovered that we are expecting another little boy. To be honest I didn't know how I would feel about another boy - would I yearn for a girl? But I am so happy that our little man will have a little bro to pal around with and I can't wait to meet him! I feel like I know all about little boys now. Unlike last time when a boy came as a complete shock at our 20 week scan, this time it's eased my worries and I'm just looking forward to finding out how this new little bean will be different to Jacob!
Working as a teacher in an SEN school, looking after a toddler, being pregnant and emotional has not been an easy few months. On top if that there has been lots of illness going around and Jacob now has chicken pox!
Pregnancy the second time around has been a much busier and more tiring time but I'm also more excited this time. I'm not as worried about things and I know more about all the great things to come. Hopefully there will be a bit less to learn and I can relax and enjoy more.
I'm feeling optimistic and looking forward to our future