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The best time of my life?

I wrote this 6 months ago when Samuel was a couple of months old and just found it with some draft posts and thought I should share it ..... 
The last few days I can't help feeling like this is the best time of my life. 
Being able to stay at home and look after both of the boys is so special and I feel relaxed and happy most of the time. 
I have got a good routine sorted now and go out most mornings to toddler groups or activities for Jacob.
This isn't to say that I don't have moments that are really hard. Sometimes Jacob really finds things difficult, he is at that age (2 and a quarter) where he is pushing the boundaries and trying to find out what he can get away with. He also is very interested in Samuel, meaning I have to intervene quite a lot as Samuel can get quite fed up getting poked and prodded so often. 

Our First Holiday

We have just got back from our first holiday as a family of four and it was fantastic! We went for a mid-week break to Center Parcs in Woburn Forest.

We booked quite late on as we weren't sure what sort of holiday if any would suit us due to our new arrival. But a couple of weeks ago we settled on Center Parcs and as soon as it was booked I was full of excitement! I used to go with my family as a child and we visited with my sister and parents when Jacob was 9 months old but this would be our first holiday just the four of us.

It was perfect in so many ways; the location being only 2.5 hours away for us was brilliant, the site is quite small but as we were walking with a toddler and a buggy everywhere this worked well for us. The furnishings and décor in the villa were lovely and comfortable. The staff were enthusiastic and friendly, the activities that we booked were mostly brilliant for the little one, the pool was well catered for small people and very warm, play areas and res…

Mummy Anger

Tonight I am asking myself how I can be so angry one minute and the next be totally over it. 
Sometimes my wonderful, caring husband can do a series of things that drive me progressively mad and result in me nearly losing it when really he's done nothing out of the ordinary at all. I put it down to "new mummy crazies". This condition, I believe, is caused by a combination of - 1, A long stretch of disturbed nights of sleep. 2, Days filled with task after task, none particularly difficult but some of which completed with one baby attatched  to a boob and a toddler climbing on you or screaming (frustrating). 3, A sad feeling that no one can help you or understand (unfounded and untrue but there none the less). 4, not finding any time to do things just for you or be able to have a "proper job". (In case you are wondering I have basically chosen to write this instead of sleep and I have a baby lying on me anyway as he will more than likely wake up If I put him down …

'Have a nap'

Good advice! Good luck! Why am I writing this when I could be having a nap? Because I just. Can't. Sleep. 
I am the most tired I have ever been but for some reason I just can't sleep in the daytime. Despite the two year old being out with his dad and the 3 week old finally dropping off after a feed and lots of cuddles. I think it's because 1. I have too much to think about and I can't turn it off. 2. At some point I have to shower and if I don't do it now will I get a chance later? And 3. It's like trying to sleep next to a flipping beautiful ticking time bomb! 

Who knows when this bundle of joy will wake up again and need me!? Plus if he's been asleep for half an hour already so the time I have left to sleep is dwindling and I still haven't had that shower. 
Tiredness is turning me into a grumpy, hopeless, joyless, worrier but what can I do? I guess suck it up and try to be positive until this wonderful little man decides he can sleep for more than 2 hour…

Three weeks... Tiredness kills

Samuel is three weeks old and generally doing really well. He seems to be struggling a little bit at the moment to be content though. I think he has a tummy problem, he seems to be in pain and grouching a lot in his sleep or when he is awake especially if he is not being held. He will also cry out when feeding and scream and arch his back sometimes before he does a poo. He feeds very frequently and he is basically leaking poo all the time which is making his bottom very sore. We have been to the doctors and have cream for him bum and we are going back today. I hope it is not something that I am eating that is making his tummy hurt. If anyone has any ideas then please let me know!

At three weeks Samuel is very strong and can hold his head up on his own for quite a few seconds and he even rolled from his front to his back once a few days ago (but I think this must've been a fluke as he is a bit little for that!). He is putting on lots of weight and I am already missing him being so…

Taking out two...

Today I went out for the first time on my own with the two boys. I must say in the days leading up to this I was pretty anxious about venturing out on my own with them! How would I keep hold of and entertain a toddler when the baby needed a feed or change or cuddle? How would I get them safely in and out of the car? Where would I go?

I didn't know but I did my best to be prepared - About halfway trough the pregnancy I had purchased a brand new, shiney Phil&Teds tandem 'dot' pushchair. I've never been one to spend much money on stuff like this and for over £400 (with raincover and extra seat) I was nervous I had made the right decision but so far it has been a godsend! It is heavy but does it's job well, it fits in the boot of my tiny car without removing wheels or anything and is comfy for both boys. Samuel can snuggle in the underneath lying flat and away from the strong sunshine or wind and Jacob can hop in and out of the chair on top when he needs to. It is …

Baby blues

For the first couple of days of Samuel's life I was on cloud nine - despite niggling little worries about how I would cope with two when their dad went back to work.

Then came the baby blues. I'm told it's very normal to get tearful a few days after havig a baby. It happens to most mums. I found myself crying at the drop of a hat. My husband would give me a hug and a flood of tears would pour out of me. I didn't even have any real reason to cry but it did feel sad and hopeless. Very disconcerting. This info on BabyCentre sums it up really well and also has some good advice.
I suffered with post natal depression after Jacob's birth and had to take some medication to help me feel normal again. I am dreading going down that road this time so the unexplained tears and emotions led me to worry more than I would have otherwise. 
However, the boy's daddy pointed me in the direction of a letter that Stephen Fry had written to one of his fans on the subject of depressio…


We were discharged from the hospital two nights after Samuel was born. With Jacob We had to stay in for 5 nights and this time I was relieved to be able to stay in for a couple of nights too. I had been dreading being sent home after 6 hours a bag of nerves and in shock. I enjoyed the time in hospital to regroup and be reassured that Samuel was ok and healthy enough to leave and also to rest myself. I was so nervous that I wouldn't be able to rest at home!

The boy's Daddy (TD) was excited to show off the new arrival on the way home so we popped to see his nan first. Then a meal had been arranged at my mum and dad's for us which was really nice but it was a boiling hot day and in the end I have to leave to go home quite quickly so that I could relax. It was all so overwhelming. The world around me had changed - at least the way I felt about it had. We drove through towns on the way home that I found scary which I hadn't before and I was frightened about everyone's …

Our new arrival - birth story

On the 24th July 2014 at 4.30am my waters broke.

This time around we were much calmer. We phoned the hospital to let them know but waited until 6am to phone my mum to ask her to come and look after Jacob. The contractions hadn't really started much so I had a shower, got ready and tidied the house while we waited. We had both been at work the day before and it was the first day of our 6 week summer holiday together. We can't argue with that for timing! Jacobs Dad and I drove to the hospital full of excitement and nerves about what was to come.

Once we got there I was sent to the labour ward to be examined. They said that my 'hind waters' had broken and it was just leaking, contractions slowed up like they did last time (I think I was getting nervous) and I was sent to the MLU (midwife led unit) to wait. I walked around and contractions started again. 
This is me between contractions as we waited.

Unfortunately as I had been examined the decision was made that I needed…

Our Morrisons Meal - Yum!

This week I was lucky enough to be picked to be a #morrisonsmum and was sent £80 in vouchers to spend in store over the bank holiday to test out their ‘New Cheaper Morrison's’ and to share my experience and a recipe with you!

We went to the big Morrison’s in Canterbury on a busy Saturday afternoon but despite the number of people we had a very positive experience. It was easy to find a very spacious Parent and Toddler space right near the entrance in the car park (a bonus at the moment as I’m not feeling very mobile with my expanding tummy bump!). Inside the supermarket the environment was easily laid out and ‘Market Street’ looked appealing. Staff were extremely friendly and made the experience as hassle free as possible.

As we had our vouchers I treated us to some extras that we wouldn’t usually buy, a Cheesecake for dessert,  a garlic flatbread, some beer for Daddy and an antipasti platter for a starter. I decided to go Italian and make a lasagne as I haven’t done it for ages a…

I'm just having the best time!

It's the Easter holidays and after a busy start getting "the boys" room decorated- new furniture bought from IKEA and made (phew!) we have settled down for fun filled sunny, relaxing days. It's been wonderful!

We've been playing in parks, riding on the Romney Hythe and Dymchurch railway, to cool swimming pools and swimming lessons, more parks, visiting friends and family and generally having lots of fun!

The 'Easter bunny' left Jacob a really cool searching activity and some fun Easter gifts and some chocolate for when he had finished.  It was fab watching his excitement as he searched the garden for the little wooden eggs, bunnies and birds in his pyjamas, coat and trainers. He collected them in his new little bucket and when he had them all opened his little surprises - definitely being most impressed by the chocolate.

It's been so nice to spend time as a family and especially to take time to reflect on our family values and think about our relatio…

Pregnancy, work and a toddler...

I haven't done much blogging lately. There are a few reasons for this but I think the main reason is that I haven't been in a very positive place emotionally and this isnt a place for me to share that. That's not what this is about. 
Briefly I think the hormone changes involved in becoming pregnant again had a challenging effect on me. It was hard to see all the good things in my life even though I knew they were there and I knew things weren't too bad I just felt a bit bland. 
Things are looking up now though. Last week we discovered that we are expecting another little boy. To be honest I didn't know how I would feel about another boy - would I yearn for a girl? But I am so happy that our little man will have a little bro to pal around with and I can't wait to meet him! I feel like I know all about little boys now. Unlike last time when a boy came as a complete shock at our 20 week scan, this time it's eased my worries and I'm just looking forward to fi…