Tuesday, 5 March 2013

back to work

Today was my first day back at work after 9 months of maternity leave. Life has changed a lot in these last few months and everything seems different now. Going back to work has just highlighted this and I find myself thinking about who I am now that I am also a mum.

My baby is 9 months old and leaving him was a huge challenge. It seems like I have been counting down to this moment since he was first born and now the day has come it is just weird. I feel like I have been away forever and also that I was never away. I am the same person but so different now. I mostly feel this this tiny man has made me so much stronger. I have to be strong for him and if leaving him to work is part of that then I can do it. I feel guilty that I have to leave him but then I remember that to him it's probably no big deal and really it's just me who feels the strain. This theory seems to have been confirmed today after an eventful day with his grandparents he greeted me with a little smile when I got back from work and then settled down to sleep after a quick feed.

I am looking forward to this new challenge and discovering how life changes even more now....

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